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I am 18 years old college student. I am male.
I just want to share what I have been facing currently. And I want to hear your thoughts about it.
I wasn't really planning to be relationship. But then she came. I fell in love. She'd made me feel loved. She lifted the whole black Environment I live in. I was a bit nerdy and weird. I was born with books in my hand. I lost my youth cuz I choose to study over it. Then so I did have girlfriend, we've been in relationship for almost 2 months. She's my very first girlfriend.
I've turned up to this age I still haven't masturbate out of lust. And I was innocent as hell to be honest with you. As she is becoming part of my daily life I fell inlove even deeper. My love is deep enough to have her in my plans in the future.(I think this is enough background)
Let's go straight to the point.
It's been like a month we'd talk about s*x. And since I was innocent I'd make my research on it as for me as an "intellectual" person won't become ignorant in front of her. So as I look into p*rn. I felt lustful, wicked, IDK what's the feeling, I can't put it into word. Then I just know I awakened my sexual desire. Additionally, Yesterday she and I are having conversations about having s*x. Then she suddenly ask if virginity matters to me. As I took her question I was confused of what she's talking about. So I ask her instead if she's needs d*flowering or not. She said "Oo?" So I added that her answer is vague. She responded again "Oo". Then I ask again why so unsure? Then there she comes sharing her experience of her past and promise that they only did "foreplay and penetration".
Today, I ask her is she's virgin or not. Then she won't answer. I pressured, I insisted but she still won't answer. We'd argue this whole day.
What should I do in this situation?
It's like
1+1=?
So It's either I answer 2 and be selfish and disregard my feelings then leave
or
I answer 3 to be idiot even you know it's wrong but ya still believe on it anyways
I just want to share what I have been facing currently. And I want to hear your thoughts about it.
I wasn't really planning to be relationship. But then she came. I fell in love. She'd made me feel loved. She lifted the whole black Environment I live in. I was a bit nerdy and weird. I was born with books in my hand. I lost my youth cuz I choose to study over it. Then so I did have girlfriend, we've been in relationship for almost 2 months. She's my very first girlfriend.
I've turned up to this age I still haven't masturbate out of lust. And I was innocent as hell to be honest with you. As she is becoming part of my daily life I fell inlove even deeper. My love is deep enough to have her in my plans in the future.(I think this is enough background)
Let's go straight to the point.
It's been like a month we'd talk about s*x. And since I was innocent I'd make my research on it as for me as an "intellectual" person won't become ignorant in front of her. So as I look into p*rn. I felt lustful, wicked, IDK what's the feeling, I can't put it into word. Then I just know I awakened my sexual desire. Additionally, Yesterday she and I are having conversations about having s*x. Then she suddenly ask if virginity matters to me. As I took her question I was confused of what she's talking about. So I ask her instead if she's needs d*flowering or not. She said "Oo?" So I added that her answer is vague. She responded again "Oo". Then I ask again why so unsure? Then there she comes sharing her experience of her past and promise that they only did "foreplay and penetration".
Today, I ask her is she's virgin or not. Then she won't answer. I pressured, I insisted but she still won't answer. We'd argue this whole day.
What should I do in this situation?
It's like
1+1=?
So It's either I answer 2 and be selfish and disregard my feelings then leave
or
I answer 3 to be idiot even you know it's wrong but ya still believe on it anyways
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